Change

I have decided to change. I know one or two people who are very driven to get what they want. And they usually get it. I do not currently do this, though I want to. I only know two or three people who are honest with me. I mean brutally honest. They tell it like it is. No one else does that. Why not? I don't think I do it with others. Maybe that's why they don't do it with me. But I want that. I want honest relationships. I hate being fake. I want to get what I want (or at least assure myself that I tried for it). I also feel that I am a different person around some people. Like my parents. I am a completely different person around them versus my friends. Why? I don't know. I think I was raised to act certain ways around my elders or something. But should I? Is that the real me?

This is why I have decided to change. I will no longer be a pushover. I will no longer be rude and condescending. I will no longer pretend to be someone else. I will be Ben, and he shall be me. I will do what I can to get what I want.

Step 1: Figure out exactly what I want.