The Search

It's been a while since my last post. Frankly, there hasn't been anything worth posting about. I've been looking for a job for a couple of weeks now, and I'm getting tired of it. That's not a good thing, considering I don't know how long I will be jobless. Of course, I could get a part-time job at Best Buy or Target or something, but that's not a 'real job' for a college graduate. Thus, the search continues.

My biggest problem is that I don't know exactly what I want to do with my life. Being a military pilot seems to be on hold for the moment. So what else do I want to do? I have no idea. I know about some things, but maybe not enough to get hired in that field. Like audio engineering. I know how to run sound and how to use a sound-editing program, but I don't know if I'd be good enough to get hired to work in a studio, for example. Or music. I can play guitar, bass, piano, but maybe not well enough to start a band and become famous. Or computers. I taught myself how to program (more or less), so I certainly don't know enough to be a professional programmer. It's quite frusterating.

Besides that, I'd like to find a job I'm somewhat interested in. Over the last few months, I've realized that I would really like to work for a church or university. But I'm not sure what I would do there. I've applied to a couple of schools for various jobs, so we'll see if anything pans out. I even applied to work at a church doing some tech stuff. But like I said, I don't know that I have enough knowledge/experience for them. We shall see.

I need a "Eureka!" moment where the skies open up, the angels sing, the light shines down upon me, and I realize, "Yes! This is what I want to do for a living!" That would be awesome. But as I don't forsee that happening, I shall continue to send out resumes and fill out applications and send emails and make phone calls. It already bores me. But it will lead to a less boring life where I make money instead of not make money. So I will press on. Such is life.